Mom took the day off of work to go with me to my appointment. I'm getting nervous. I really want twins but I have been thinking about the possibility of it being triplets. I don't know how I would do it. It seems almost impossible. I hope it's only twins. I don't think my body can handle more than that.
When the screen showed my uterus I could see two sacs. All Dr D said was, "I see trouble." My mom got really nervous. She wasn't sure if there really was trouble or he was joking. He was joking of course.
I knew it! Twins.
I just wanted to hear the heartbeats and I did. What a relief. He said I was 5 weeks 4 days in gestation. He gave me my odds in this pregnancy. 70% that both would survive, 29% one would survive and 1% of losing both. I appreciate his directness and honesty at each visit.
Back in a few weeks for another ultrasound and hopefully to be discharged to my regular OB.
As we left the office my mom was so excited that I was having twins. I gave her some of the pictures to take home and stare at.
I'm happy but still scared. There is so much uncertainty. I feel as though there are many obstacles to overcome. I think of all of the problems that came up in the last pregnancy and those are all goals for me surpass without it becoming a problem again. With each one we get through successfully I shall breath a little sigh of relief. Until the day they actually come through the door in our home I shall be scared.
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