Well today is my birthday and I feel older than my 32 years suggests. Regardless of how old I feel I wouldn't change anything about my life right now. My boys are what make my day each morning and fill me up with so much love.
I'm going down to Shipshewana with Doug and my parents. You know you are getting old when a trip to Amish land for lunch and grocery shopping gets you excited. Oh well, that's my kind of fun and I don't care who knows it. :)
I will admit though that I am feeling on the verge of panic and trying to keep the tears at bay today. I'm leaving my boys with some friends for the day and I know they will be great with the kids. My fear has nothing to do with their undoubtable ability to care for my boys. It has to do with the fact that Doug and I still have not decided what to do with the boys if something should happen to us. All I can think of is that we will get in a car crash on the way down and die. What then would happen to my boys? We would be leaving a great big legal mess behind us. All I have running through my mind since 4 am is what if...what if...what if. This really stinks.
I know we don't lack for people in our lives who love our little boys but I worry just the same. So prayers today that nothing happens to us and that we make it back safe to our precious cargo!
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