Wrestling with William

I'm feeling pretty bad right now.  William is in bed screaming his head off as though I completely abandoned him.  He has been in there screaming for three quarters of an hour.  I have sung to him, talked to him, left him to himself, and given him a toy.  None of it is soothing him.  He wants to be held and I refuse to give into it.  I must conquer this stubbornness.

I have been a little lax lately about making him go down to sleep on his own.  Instead I have been allowing him to be held in the evenings and for naps until he falls asleep.  But the last few nights have been just awful.

Both boys have been waking in the night and wanting to play.  Three nights this has gone on.  I am running on very little sleep.  I don't cope with my emotions very well on so little sleep.  Once Levi is tired he goes to bed without a problem and thankfully that is still the case.  He has just been waking in the night with some energy that needs to be burned.

William on the other hand has been a downright pill.  He insists on being held while he sleeps.  Last night I let my Mom hold him all night only because he was having some congestion and he seemed to have a hard time breathing while he laid in bed.  Well, I'm paying for it tonight.  The congestion seems to be gone but he now thinks, no demands to be held and will not calm down.  You would think he would have worn himself out by now from all of the energy he has expelled in screaming so.

I feel like a terrible person to let him cry so aggressively.  But I will not survive if I let it happen night after night.  I feel like a zombie and have been sick to my stomach from losing so much sleep over the last three nights.  I could use some prayers that I am able to conquer this battle of the wills.  We both need the rest.